Okay, YOU WIN THE GIF GAME NOTHING CAN TOP THAT RESPONSE.
"and I guess just the idea that growing up as a slave, he probably lived with a constant fear of sudden change and loss, completely out of his control, all his young life, and that sense of powerlessness stays with him? and it becomes even sharper and more terrifying for him, because he’s NOT a slave anymore, he’s POWERFUL now, he should be able to PROTECT poeple now, he shouldn’t have to LOSE people anymore."
Yessss. YES. That is exactly what I was thinking, exactly. And I consciously didn’t go off to explore it further because I was thinking that would be an entire post on its own, but now I feel like I should have included a paragraph, because that is exactly it—he grew up powerless, with that constant fear of sudden change and loss, and no control, and now it’s … exactly that. He NEEDS control, he NEEDS TO MAKE THINGS OKAY because he should be able to, now, he’s powerful, he’s THE CHOSEN ONE right, he can protect people now—like you said.
He shouldn’t have to lose people anymore.
And then I’m like yes you take a boy who grew up a slave, probably has a really … not fully formed sense of self, and then you stick him in an environment where he has to call someone Master and defer to their teachings.
WHAT COULD POSSIBLY GO WRONG